Been a while

Wow I can't believe how long it's been since I read these old posts, let alone posted a new one. 
For now I'm back.  I'll write when I feel like it I guess. After all, it's my blog right?

So anyway there's not much point in writing once every 2 years.  I have a lot to say and sometimes forget the sound of my own voice simply because I never say all those things.  Maybe it's high time to get rolling on not only finding my voice again, but also saying all the things I have to say.

So much has happened. It's amazing it's been 2 years and with as much as has happened so many things have stayed the same.  Victoria has graduated from high school, Sam is 16 and only 2 years away.  I'm still single and while I'm as ok with it as ever I feel the time creeping up on me when I'll be more alone than ever before...I guess there's a plan for that right?  There's a reason for everything and nothing happens by accident. 

That single part.  I've met women. I've dated women. I just for some reason don't seem to get along with too many of them for more than a few minutes.  Ok that's probably not true.  I just don't play the game very well - yeah still 2 years later.  I'm 42 now and I still don't know the game.  Is the game important?  Seems like it really must be. Something about that games makes you more interesting, or at least makes you seem more interesting.  Maybe that's not it at all and maybe I'm just too concerned about it no matter how often I say I'm not.  Really I feel ok with being alone and on my own, and at the same time I do hope I don't spend the rest of my life waking up to an otherwise empty bed...never will I want it so bad that I'm willing to fill that other place in the bed with just anybody to make sure it's full.  Gosh - I write a lot about being single....next post - NOTHING about it.